Saturday, November 3, 2007
I just had one of the moments.. the ones where everything around you stops and you are only in that moment. I had one of those
days with Elias he was so fussy today.. wining and crying for no reason which is not normal..i was getting frustrated.. and like
normal we have our bedtime routine .. and as usual right before i put him in his crib i give him his soother and bunny to snuggle
and he snuggles right into me and i sing him a few lullabies.. its my favorite part of the day.. but today i got a lump in my
throat as i snuggled my little boy.. who isnt so little anymore.. and most people that know us know that Elias has always been
a big boy to say the least, but I being his mother know him only as my baby.. and tonight i really realized that he is so much
bigger and every night as he snuggles on my shoulder he gets bigger and bigger, i never want to not be able to snuggle him
like that.. and i got choked up just thinking about how much he is growing and how he isnt going to be my baby forever and it
made me snuggle and sing to him and hold him even longer than usual...
and as i was tearing up he knew and he looked up
into my eyes like he was saying its okay mama...
these are the moments i never want to forget.. so please dont let me ever
forget what that moment felt like...